- anger — Melanie, Fri Dec 27 13:57
- Thanks, Melanie — Casey, Sat Dec 28 00:20
- Re: Thanks, Melanie — Anonymous, Sat Dec 28 01:04
- Re: Thanks, Melanie — Casey, Sat Dec 28 19:26
- You are welcome — Melanie, Sat Dec 28 00:50
- be careful — jennifer, Tue Dec 24 22:32
- you're right — Casey, Thu Dec 26 15:56
- *smile* — jennifer, Fri Dec 27 19:20
- back at you — Casey, Sat Dec 28 19:34
- good for you! — jennifer, Sat Dec 28 21:59
- I'm the same way! — Casey, Sun Dec 29 10:54
- Here's my response — Casey, Sun Dec 29 11:03
- thanks — jennifer, Mon Dec 30 19:15
- Re: Here's my response — Gloria, Sun Dec 29 14:10
Casey
An update to Jennifer, Diane, and everyone else
Tue Dec 24 09:40:29 2002
For starters, I am getting help. I am seeing a wonderful, supportive psychologist who offers her time to listen, which is what I need most. She helped me see that I am going through all the signs of grieving, which is completly normal. She also gently hinted that I am severly depressed, which I had suspected since September. I went to my family doctor, and he put me on Lexapro, an anti-depressant. I've only been taking it for a couple weeks, and don't feel much of a difference. I could experience changes in as little as 4 weeks or as much as 6. It'll be hard, but this is a step in the right direction for me. Unfortunely, I do have news that made my depression worse. I spoke to Jeff, the father, and he told me over the phone,(he obviously doesn't have the courage to tell me in person, and wisely so) that he will no longer support me because he doesn't know how, he doesn't want to, and doesn't have to. That hurt more than anything had in a while. All I asked from him was time to listen to me. He works in radio; how different can it be other than he's not getting paid this time? I never once asked him to pay for the psychologist, the medication, to go with me, etc. But he said I soured the relationship with a comment I made on his show. I called in, never said my name, his name as being involved, or my situation. My comment was never aired, either. I don't understand how my own opinion can make ME sour the relationship, and HIM unable to trust me. Honestly, I don't know if I want to know, because it'll make me feel bad, when it should be the opposite. He also said that he's at a point to where he doesn't care who I tell about the abortion. Well, my mom, her brothers and sisters grew up with another DJ here in town that competes against Jeff's for ratings. I will tell Jeff that since he doesn't care who tell, I can tell rivals that will run him (literally) out of Wichita. It's sad when I almost have to threaten him to get an hour of his time to listen to the mother of his child. True, I'm not anymore, but I was the mother of his, and our, first. Maybe I should give you the website address to his station so you can e-mail him! But I want to wish you all a Merry Christmas and Happy New Year. It's going to be hard for me, like it may be for some of you. I'll do my best to make it through, but I know it's okay if I cry. Be as strong as you can, all of you, and I know you'll make it.
~Casey
