- *smile* — jennifer, Fri Dec 27 19:20
- back at you — Casey, Sat Dec 28 19:34
- good for you! — jennifer, Sat Dec 28 21:59
- I'm the same way! — Casey, Sun Dec 29 10:54
- Here's my response — Casey, Sun Dec 29 11:03
- thanks — jennifer, Mon Dec 30 19:15
- Re: Here's my response — Gloria, Sun Dec 29 14:10
Casey
you're right
Thu Dec 26 15:56:02 2002
198.81.27.10
Jennifer~
I read what you wrote over and over, and as much as I don't want to admit it, you're right. I can't force him to grieve with me or to even listen, so I have no choice but to keep seeing the psychologist I'm seeing now, and to go through the grieving/healing process on my own. It hurts knowing that he's in Wichita, on the radio, at home, and he doesn't want anything to do with me or my feelings. No matter what, and I told my best friend Jenifer this, I will always be the mother of his first child. Yes, he can get married in the future, and have kids, but I will always have carried his first child inside me. The present will become the past, but it'll always stay the same. He can hate me or love me, but that'll always remain true. I only hope that he needs someone someday as much as I needed him, and then feel how bad it hurts to be rejected and forgotten. Thanks for caring. I wish you well.
~Kacee
