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- Re: your friend — Casey, Thu Jan 2 14:59
- more thoughts for Jenifer — Gloria, Mon Jan 6 21:44
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Casey
Jennifer
Wed Jan 1 18:36:50 2003
198.81.27.8
Jennifer~
Thank you for saying Alexandria Clarice is a beautiful name. I never told Jeff what I would have named our daughter. I told him I knew our baby would have been a girl, and have his last name(Andrews). I saw Jeff last night. We had this folder that had all the abortion and pregnancy paperwork in it, and he kept it at his house. Well, we met and he gave it to me. I didn't say anything about the abortion. All I said was thanks, and asked him if he needed the recipts for taxes. He said no, you're welcome, and for me to be careful. I wanted to tell him so badly that I missed him, and that I loved him when we were together, but I figured that if he doesn't want to support me, and doesn't feel he has to, then there's no reason why I should put my feelings on the line or wear my heart on my sleeve and tell him how I feel. You're a great friend, too. I couldn't ask for someone else other than you to be supportive of me, my abortion, and my feelings. It's wonderful to know that you're there, and know firsthand what I'm going through. Samuel is a handsome name. I've always liked that name for a boy. I would have named our baby Jonathan Patrick if it had been a boy. It's 2003, and I resolved last night to not think so much about Jeff, and all the 'what ifs'. He has proven himself worthless and unable to care about my feelings, which hurts so much. I can't force him to like me, and I can't force him to care. So, I'm still telling myself that I'm healing and doing what's best for me, and going positive, effective ways for support. You, my best friend Jenifer, this board, and my psychologist are whom I turn to for support, and have always received it. I told Jenifer about the whole Jeff not supporting me thing, and like I said before, she's furious. I told her every little thing that had to do with my abortion, the relationship between Jeff and I, Jeff, and anything else I could think of. She still says she would get an abortion, and I'm not going to talk her out of it. I'm still pro-choice, and whatever is best for her, I want her to do. I told her not to do it to protect the father first, then herself, like I did. She needs to put Jenifer first, then the father. Of course, she knows I'll always be here for her, and I told her about you, and your support. If in fact she is pregnant, and has an abortion, I'll be sure to tell her about this board. I hope you had a Happy New Year, and that this year will be easier for you. It'll be hard for me, because on Jan. 28, it's my ex's birthday, on Feb. 28, it's my other best friend's birthday, and on Mar. 28, it's my brother's birthday. The 28th is a anniversary of my abortion, but it gets a little bit easier as each month comes and goes. Take care of yourself, and write back whenever.
~Kacee
