- Re: Here's the mistake — Gloria, Fri Jan 17 13:23
- hey — jennifer, Tue Jan 14 13:01
- Re: hey — Casey, Tue Jan 14 18:00
Casey
Re: Here's the mistake
Thu Jan 9 20:04:16 2003
Jennifer~
I'm so sorry you're not doing well. You know that I hope only the best for you, and that you'll be okay. I know that I need, must, and have to get rid of Jeff. But it's so hard when his station has a big influence in Wichita. My doctor who prescribes my medicine told me to get angry at Jeff; not to hold my anger in, because it can only lead to distructive behavior towards myself. Good advice, and I'm going to start feeling more anger at him than the shame and guilt I feel towards myself. I also have the 'anniversary syndrome' that's happening to you. The 28th of each month always gets me down; I'm sorry that your anniversary is coming up, and you have been having dreams and thoughts. My 1 year anniversary will come, too, and I hope it's somewhat easy to handle.
I don't know what I'm trying to accomplish by letting Jeff's boss know; maybe to let him see, and prove, that although Jeff may have a reputation as a great guy on the radio; in person, he's worthless. What keeps me focused on him, I think, is how he was before we found out I was pregnant. The smiles, phone calls, e-mails, private jokes on the radio, you get the idea. But, I know that we share something forever. I got the dosage of my medication increased, so my depression is slowly, but surely, getting better. I hope and pray that you will get through your anniversary okay, but you can always write and let me know how you're doing, and if there's anything I can say or do to help you out. To let you personally know who Jeff is, I would like you to go to his station's website-www.power939.com. His radio name is Crash. Look under The Power Morning Playhouse with Crash and The Hitman. That's the segment he does, and his partner. Maybe if someone on this board knows who he is, it won't seem like he's a stranger, you know what I mean?
Jenifer, my friend, knows the whole story behind my abortion, and I couldn't stress to her enough about the feelings I was having afterwards. I'm in no way going to talk her out of an abortion, or try to talk her into one. But she and I are grateful that we have each other for best friends, because this is something that we'll have gone through together, and share forever. Take care of yourself, and thanks for writing. Good luck.
~Kacee
