- Re: hey — Casey, Tue Jan 14 18:00
jennifer
hey
Tue Jan 14 13:01:52 2003
Kacee~
hey. things are getting a little better, what with the semester starting again, and all my friends back.
kacee, what do you do everyday? i know you're in school. do you get invloved in activities? i don't know. i'm not the psychologist, but finding things in which to get invloved and gain confidence through seems like it would be a good step to take, along with the therapy sessions, and even more important then medication. anyway, i understand the whole need to "reveal" jeff to the world, but all in all, it seems like it won't change things for you, and you're the one that needs to heal.
it's funny but in the beginning all i wanted to do was make the father miserable. i wanted everyone to know that he was a creep, a coward, completely worthless.
i still want to do this once in a while, but it's at the point i know that he will always have to deal with the fact that he not only got a girl pregnant and had the child aborted, but he also abandoned that girl (me).
in a way, he has a lot more guilt to deal with then me.
and that is what keeps me pushing forward, trying to better myself, rather then beat him down.
ugh. this would be easier if we lived closer and we could talk.
oh well.
good luck in all.
i'll be around.
ugh. classes.
always,
jennifer
