- There is hope!!!!!!!!!! — Rebecca Colquitt, Fri Nov 16 10:02
- Dear Angel... — Diane Cheryl, Fri Nov 16 01:22
angel
lost forever
Thu Nov 15 14:07:41 2001
Today is exactly 2 weeks since my abortion. I am so devastated about the whole thing. I am 28 years old and I am married. We have an 8 year old and a 1 year old. My husband had a vasectomy last year because we had decided that our family was complete. My last pregnancy was very hard and I was on bedrest most of the 9 months. We felt lucky that our daughter turned out okay. When I found out that I was pregnant, I was totally shocked. MY HUSBAND HAD A VASECTOMY!!! Well its obvious that it didn't work.
We decided not to keep the baby, but no counseling was offered to me by the doctors office when I told them that I needed to speak to someone about the posibility of not keeping the baby. They just told me to pick up "the paperwork" at the front counter. "The paperwork" was abortion information.
At the abortion clinic there were protesters with a huge photo of an unborn baby. I started crying uncontrollably. I told my husband that I could go through with it. I told him several times. He finally convinced me to go inside and have it done. Now I can't sleep, I feel like God was trying to give me a precious gift and I just threw it away.
My husband doesn't understand why Im so upest. He says be thankful for the chilren that we already have. I love my chilren more than anything in the world, but I just feel as if I lost my baby and now nothing will ever be the same again. I just can't forgive myself. I am so ashamed that I couldn't just stand up for myself and just say no.
