Casey
Re: My loss
Sun Dec 1 14:37:16 2002
I have no regrets over what I did, but the guilt and shame are natural feelings that I've had, but I am in the process of getting help for those. I'm also not sure by what you mean alternatives at my college. How do I feel about sacraficing my interests for the reputation and employment of the father? Absolutely wrong. I told him that I felt no appreciation for what I did from him. He had told me during the process that I was stronger than any other women he knew, but that strength only lasts so long. It wasn't worth it, now that I think about it, but I learned my lesson, and will be more careful and cautious in the future. When I hear a protestor call abortion murder, it hurts me inside. They don't know my reasons for my choice, and I would't judge anyone, nor have I ever, for having an abortion. In a way, I cry whenever I hear or see the protestors, because I did what they're trying to prevent. But it was my choice to make. If I had other options, and I did, I would still have chosen abortion. It's like I told my best friend;if I was in any way trying to 'trap' the father, then wouldn't I have kept the baby? Maybe if I was 4 or 5 years older, I would have considered keeping the pregnancy. I still think about the procedure everyday; Thanksgiving was the 3rd month to the day after I had my abortion. I know that the father is here for me, but it's hard, because he's not a woman. He tries to understand, but he has encouraged me to talk to someone as well. I'll be looking for support groups to go to. I appreciate you for writing back, and caring.
~Casey
