- birth control info — Diane Cheryl, Wed Aug 28 23:47
- thanks for the reply — Renee, Thu Aug 29 01:28
- my opinion and story — Diane Cheryl, Thu Aug 29 09:10
Renee
Still wondering
Wed Aug 28 12:42:23 2002
hi, my name is Renee and I am almost 21 years old. I work as a volunteer at a pregnancy resource center in my area that offers post abortion counseling. I've researched this topic and also abortion in general a lot and it makes me feel almost guilty that I'm struggling with my own issue.
When I turned 19 I lost my virginity to my finace. We had often didn't use "protection" because we never planned to have sex. We had originally wanted to wait until marriage. We eventually broke up and I was devastated. I turned to another guy immediately after to try and soothe the pain I was feeling. During my sexual activity with both my fiance and the guy that followed, I ended up getting "Emergency Contraceptive" and taking it 6 times.
Now when I started working at the pregnancy center, they gave us literature on the "Morning after pill" as it is also called. One way that it works is that if the egg is already fertilized when you take it, it will prevent it from implanting. Now, before I took it, I without a doubt believed that a fertilized egg was a human worthy of life. I hesitated to take that first pill because they had explained to me how it works. But I eventually took it because I was terrified at the idea of "becoming pregnant." Each of the six times, it got easier and easier to swallow those pills.
Now I am wondering. Did I abort? I don't even know if I had a fertilized egg when I took those pills. I don't even know if my assumption that killing a fertilized egg that has not implanted is wrong was correct. I couldn't live with myself if I came to realize that I had killed my own child/ren. But am I just telling myself that I didn't so that I can cope? Plus, if the morning after pill is wrong, then is the birth control pill wrong as well? It works in the same way. I really need some feedback on all of this. Thank you.
